Day 54

Not gonna lie, I felt like crap doing core synergistics tonight!! I don't know what it was, but I just wasn't feeling it tonight. And that frustrated me beyond words!! I think it had to do with being tired and stressed out... whatever it was, it made bringing it during this intense workout even harder. Sigh. About 25 minutes in I was ready to call it quits. I was annoyed with my lack of motivation and I started questioning why the heck I'm putting myself through this... that just made me feel discouraged and more annoyed! Ugh, terrible mental cycle going on right there. I reminded myself that I'm doing this to get STRONG, the strongest I have ever been. To be FIT, the most fit I have ever been. I'm doing this to feel good, to look great, to be healthier, push my limits, increase my abilities and have a body that I am proud of! I'm doing this to make changes that stick. I'm doing this for me. With those things in mind, I mustered up the strength to get through the entire workout, including the bonus moves at the end! Still not gonna lie, though, I didn't even feel great afterwards! Boo. I LOVE that endorphin high after working out! In my opinion, it's one of the best feelings ever. I didn't get that tonight, though. I felt more nauseous than hyped up on endorphins. But hey, workout high or not, I did my best. That's all that I can ask from my body- it's best. The trick is making my best better with every workout. I think that's the hardest part- convincing myself that my "best" last week isn't my best this week. I have further to go as I get stronger; I'm capable of pushing harder. Constantly gotta bring it!

Tomorrow is the last workout day of the recovery phase, which means yoga session #2 on the week. Bleh. Not looking forward to it but it has to be done. I'm getting nervous to start phase three. My body is feeling pretty drained. I'm worried that I won't do that great with my final phase. I really want to kick it up a notch and seriously bring it! I just know that's going to be rough... I'm going to have to push my limits like never before if I want to finish this strong. I guess I'll embrace tomorrow's yoga day and be thankful it's not a crazy intense workout. Yeah, that's what I'll tell myself, ha. Yoga x, gonna bring it!